Unspoken Words...

After a long time, I am in a train again for more than one day journey. I can remember my last train journey. It was in the beginning of 2006, may be Jan end or beginning of Feb from Bangalore to Howrah in the same train I am today, Yashvantpur Express.

Recap...

I was in Bangalore for CDAC interview. I was unemployed that time; searching for a job. Me and my dad reached Bangalore at around 8 o’clock in the morning. Very next day was my interview. After that a day break and then my return journey was planned. Oh I was all alone during my interview date because my dad leaves Bangalore the same day we arrived.

One of my friends called me on the evening of the interview and inform me that we had an offcampus interview for CTS. So, I should board on the very next day of the interview, otherwise I would miss the opportunity.

I came to station in the morning; book a tatkal ticket (which was waiting list too). In the afternoon, I carry my language and went to the station. I cancel my other ticket and board into the train.

My ticket was not confirmed yet. So I talk with a TT and failed. He told me tatkal waiting list.. No one can do anything.. Being an enthusiastic person I search for a vacant seat and slept.

After a few hours, another TT came and shakes my leg and asks "hay! Why are you sleeping here?" I show my ticket, and he told me "there are passengers for this seat, and will board from the next station." Even after saying so he told me to stay there and few minutes back he came and allocate a seat for me. I was feeling lucky that time. However, he asks me "where are you going?" I understand his intention. He wanted few bucks for his service. I told that I was there for an interview, and he just do not ask for any money. Strange! But Yaa may be because I am a student he does not ask for it... But that was all I can remember about my last journey..

Now, in this journey I had a RAC ticket. That means I can sit at least. Last night I boarded in the allocated coach and sit with another person allocated on the same seat.

Then the person of seat number 48 asks me to do a favor. And that is to take their confirmed seat and give the RSC seat to them. Yes you heard it correct. They want to exchange their confirm seats with our RAC tickets. They are actually 3 friends one from Bangladesh, who is talking with me for the deal, and other two are from may be vutan, japan, manipur.. I won't know.. I won't ask.. But, they do not understand Bengali, not even hindi. They understand only english. These persons got the seats in the different end of the same coach. Now they want to stick together. So they offer me their seat.. And what else is required for me.. I need to sleep, and they need to stay in awake. So deal final. What say?? I am lucky again?? Yaa I am lucky again..

Hello, all of you... It’s a long time, since I wrote my last blog. For last 6 to 9 month I thought of writing something; and come up with nothing because of my busy life. Today December 20th 2009, returning from Bangalore, I get few times to spend with my mobile office. So I decided to write something.

The garden city Bangalore; this is my 4th visit; for an international conference, ADCOM 2009. It was important for me in two ways. First of all, my very first paper "An Efficient Algorithm to Reconstruct Minimum Spanning Tree in an Asynchronous Distributed System" was published in the conference; and second cause was it focuses on Green Computing. People who know me can easily understand why GREEN is so much important to me; for others I may write another blog in another time. Wait until then

Let me share my feelings with you. Since was there for presenting my paper for the very first time in front of so many knowledge hunters, tension was mounting as the time came closer and closer. However, I enjoyed some great presentation from some key note presenters; also slept during some presentation

One and half day was over, all great people was sharing their thoughts of latest technology trend and green computing. An industry session on Green Data Center was scheduled just before the start of technical paper presentation in the afternoon of day 2. As I already told you, it was my first time in such a conference. So, I won’t have any idea how these sessions are organized and how much quality require in the presentation. When I was attending these presentations, I found that it is not very important that how you present, it is more important that whether you're getting few suggestions from the other technical people working on the same field or not.
I prepared for the presentation and present my paper in the morning of very last day of the conference. And yes I got few valuable suggestions; one from a very senior member of ACS. So, I think my presentation was right on the spot. Hay obviously I am considering this was my first time. Otherwise it requires lot more improvement.

Anyway food was nice. I always like south Indian food because for 3 or 4r day in a year with different food habits make you feel good about taste. However, the more important thing in conference was, I make 2 friends. They are good; they share their view and suggest some valuable idea about my future research plan.

So, at the end if I tried to count the cost effectiveness of my visit; I can say it was a balanced journey. Today returning from the green city, I am caring a green mind and a green energy with me. Hope this help me on my future works.

Each and every human has some negative emotions. I am not different either. However, I always try to minimize (Avoid is quite impossible) THE driver of these negative emotions; the driver I am talking about is "Ego". Any way this write-up is not about the driver, it is about one of its outcome. Being Selfish i.e. you are too much concerned about yourself and it prevents you from doing right things in right moment. Sometime it hurts others sometime it restricts you from helping others.

Now, come to my story. It happened today November 14^th, 2008. I got news that our result is published. I finished my work quickly and hurried towards my campus. I found I got quite a decent score as expected (Because my exam was very good). First thing came to my mind was that check the scores of those person who could compete me for the position. Quickly check all those scores to determine my position in our discipline. Wow I am in top three. I was so much concentrated about me and my score that I forgot to inform all of my friends about the news and their scores. Even I did not note down their marks. Though I collect information about some of my very very close friend but forgot about most of the others who are expecting something more from me. Even I did not realize the fact unless I got the phone call from one of them asking me whether I knew the news or not. I had no answer, no explanation to give; at least to me. "I really forgot you my friend!!!" is the only explanation I could give to myself.

You may thing, what the silly thing I am thinking about. I also tried to support myself by this explanation. But at the end of the day I am not happy. Actually, I am "I AM" because of others; if you remove them from my life I become nothing. Yes it is true. True for each and every individual of the world.